grateful

i'm sitting here thinking "crap, i haven't blogged in such a long time... there's NOTHING to blog abot..."

here goes:

i decided i have been kind of busy and a lot of things have happened that i should be grateful for

i am grateful that we haven't had to move yet.  when we were first told that our building was going up for sale (remember this?) we thought we'd have to figure it out right away.  after sleeping on it for a night, we realized we actually won't have to think about this or make any decisions for months and months, most likely.  so, i am grateful (in this case) for this slow economy when it comes to real estate :)

i am grateful to be pregnant and even more grateful that we finally got things squared away with our insurance.  almost since we found out we were expecting, i was basically told that i would have to find a new doctor in a new health plan and was pretty much devastated.  sure, find a new doctor, get on with it.  i know it's not actually that big of a deal.  but i put it off for the last 3 months hoping and praying (and continuing to see my awesome doctor) that things would open up and change.  i called last week to check on the status and apparently it was the time to call - i was let back in!  thank goodness for that because dr. jones is amazing and did such a fantastic job on my c-section that if i have to do it again (who knows yet) i really, really, really wanted him to be doing it again.

i am grateful for a good man as my husband.  in case anyone was wondering, he's not perfect... but neither am i.  by a long shot.  i'm so grateful that he's working hard and following his dream.  he's pursued photography and he's making it work.  we're in the building stages of a career, so we have to be very patient at this point.  it can be hard to hear people complaining about their "low" salaries or their high interest rates and not want to say "well, at least you have a full-time job" or "at least you own your home."  i am grateful for heavenly father's blessing on me (because it's definitely not anything i'm doing) to be patient and content with our current situation.  a happy husband = a happy home and it's definitely worth supporting him to pursue his passion.

i am grateful to be a mom.  i love kate.  my mom loves to tell me how surprised she is by my mothering.  i take it as a complete compliment (instead of asking, "what, did you expect me to be miserable at it?")  she knows what she's talking about - i've never been much of a nurturer and i was pretty nervous about how the patience and unconditional love thing would play out.  but i am so grateful for this role in life.

i am grateful for in-laws who have let weston drive an old car of theirs for the past 2+ months.  this has allowed us time to start piling money together for a new-to-us "family" car.  we have been casually looking online and talking to the guy we bought our saturn from (hoping he'll be able to find us a vue in our price range and work on it).  however, who knows what we'll end up with because weston went to san diego for a week (work?  really?) and he drove a new dodge caravan and came home saying things like, "that was a sweet car" and "it might not be so bad to have one of those".  everyone in my family except my sister has a caravan (including my parents) and before that trip, weston had never wanted to consider a minivan... it's not my first choice right now either (i mean, we only have 1 child...) we'll see what happens, though :)

i'm grateful for surprises like filing my taxes a month ago, checking the account everyday waiting for that refund to be deposited, and seeing an extra $700 tacked on.  that will go nicely towards our vehicle fund...

i'm grateful for parents who allow me, along with all their kids, to show up and visit for several days to weeks to get a rest from life.  they are so good to their daughters who need a break and help with kiddos.  i'm grateful they live in monroe (even though my dad occasionally talks of moving) because it's the perfect quiet spot to relax and get away from routines of life.  thank you for making me feel welcome enough to bring kate home with me when weston's away or ultra busy!

i'm grateful for random things.  things like after being told my modem is broken (1 week out of warranty) and we'll just have to buy a new one, several hours later it starts working for us again.  things like taking my daughter to have lunch with daddy and then taking her to see a matinee at the dollar theater.  things like birds singing outside when i wake up!  things like not being in that car accident i was next in line for (thank goodness for moments of conservative driving).

if you've made it this far... well, thanks for reading i guess.  it's funny how therapeutic things like this can be - especially when you never set out for that :)  i'll try to start blogging again but i'm not making any promises!!!